Friday, January 30, 2015

The Leap

I will take the sun in my mouth
and leap into the ripe air
with closed eyes
to dash against darkness

~ e.e. cummings

I lost a friend this week.

We never met in person, yet we knew each
other through emails sent over several
years.  I always smiled when I found a
note from her in my inbox, because she
penned each one very thoughtfully.

Like me, she wrote a blog, a kindred
spirit who loved words, images and
celebrating the delights of life,
both large and small.

From her blog and our emails, I knew
Amy Arnaz cherished her husband Desi and
daughter Haley, cared deeply for dogs and
cats (she had both), and authored sweet
children's books.  She also passionately
supported rescue efforts of baby elephants,
orphaned due to the ivory trade.

As a classically trained ballerina and
teacher known simply as Miss Amy to hundreds
of ballet students, Amy literally leapt in
the ripe air and tasted the light, just as
e.e. cummings suggests that we all do.

Compared to her real family and friends, the
ribbon of our connection was a thin one.

But connect we did.

Amy took her final bow on earth last Friday,
ushered from this life way too early by 
a brain tumor.

I like to believe that instead of an ending
for Amy, her exit was a beginning, like
the curtain calls she'd made so many times,
and now she is spinning and dancing across a
magical stage, taking the ultimate leap away
from darkness and towards the sunlight.

One of the great mysteries of existence is
not knowing when our own curtain will
come down.  When the show is over. 

Until then, let's grab the sunshine and leap
and twirl and love this life before it's
closing night. 

Dash against the darkness.

Thank you, Miss Amy, for your inspiring
kindness, grace and zest for living.
And for being my friend.


{photo: my own}


Dianna said...

Oh, Dear Suzanne, I am so sorry that once again you've lost a friend. It always gives me much to ponder when these people whose lives end way too early are taken from us. May we allow it to bring a change about in us. Or as you so beautifully phrased it, "Dash against the darkness".

Hugs to you, dear one.
xo Dianna

June said...

This is SO beautiful Suzanne. You inspire me every time I read here with your heart. What a beautiful heart you have! Amy was blessed to 'know' you, and you her.
warm hugs today...

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michele said...

i'm just sure her exit was indeed a beginning. your words of love for miss amy radiate much light, suzanne. peace to you right where you are.

Cynthia said...

What a beautiful tribute to a special friend. Brought tears to my eyes. I am sorry for your loss, Suzanne.

Linda @ Itsy Bits And Pieces said...

What a lovely tribute to Amy, Suzanne. She sounds like someone I would have loved to know.
Thank you for sharing her with us. I'm very sorry for your and I know blog friendships are real, even if you never meet. xoxo sweet friend

Patty Christopher said...

{ps: this is one my most favorite quotes}

Lisa @ Shine Your Light said...

Suzanne, I'm so sorry for the loss of your friend. I love your take on Amy's exit being a beginning, I couldn't agree more wholeheartedly. How wonderful that you and Amy made a connection while she was here, one that surely enriched both of your lives. XO

Lucy martin said...

My heart felt sympathies to is amazing how closely connected we can feel to someone we've never met...truely a gift indeed.
Blessings and love,Lucy

Lisa Ancona-Roach said...

So sorry for your loss, Suzanne. You've written a beautiful tribute to Amy, and I bet in between her spinning and dancing, she is smiling at the warmth of such lovely words.

"Create Beauty" said...

Yes, Suzanne, let us dash and leap and dance! ~ enjoy the Light and overcome the darkness.

Beautiful thoughts lovingly shared....

~ Violet

Jeanie said...

I'm so deeply sorry for your loss, Suzanne. As you may know from the Gypsy, a year ago a good blog friend died. We had met, but I think by and large, it was a similar experience in loss as to say farewell to Amy -- too early, too wrong. And to say goodbye to a friend is just so very hard, so very lonely.

This post is simply perfect -- eloquently and heartfully written. And yes, I think a beginning. I hope a beautiful beginning. Big hugs.

Low Tide High Style said...

So very sorry for your loss! How lucky were are to have people come into our lives, no matter for how short a time, that touch us in a way that makes us want to live our lives more fully for having known them.

xo Kat

Sandi~A Cottage Muse said...

I'm so sorry for your loss and will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Thank you for sharing your feelings with us, so beautiful. May your memories comfort you and help mend your heart.

ChiPPy!-SHaBBy! said...

Oh Suzanne...
Amy is my Dear Sweet Cousin!*!*! It was by some "cosmic connection" that I clicked on the thumb nail of your beautiful white roses, only to find you knew her as well!!! ~ OMG!!! I most certainly will pass this along to Haley... A*N*D, I think I might have met you some years back at NaDa Farm Barn Sale??? L*O*V*E to you...
Jeanine Burkhardt

Sylvia said...

This is beautiful and inspiring!
Isn't this a magic thing - the connection we feel sometimes to people who we only know from afar and yet, we know in our heart of hearts that they have come into our lives for some important reason, large or small...
I am deeply sorry for your loss, Suzanne!

Beth said...

Sorry that you have lost a friend Suzanne. It doesn't matter what the connection was - it can still hurt.
take care,

Terra said...

How sad you have lost a friend, so young. Yet Jesus promises those who love him a place in heaven where we will meet again. Your friend may be dancing there right now.

Charm Bracelet Diva {at Home} said...

I am so sorry to hear what you're going through, friend. It amazes me that even in your sorrow you can find a way, through your writing, to uplift so many. The quote is perfect, and something I think we all need to hear, one way or another, at different times in our lives. The key is to not just hear but to live it. Hugs across the miles.

Seawashed Living said...

My sympathy dear Suzanne. Now she dwells in the eternal embrace of the light. xxo

Just a little something from Judy said...

If only everyone could be given as sweet and kind of a tribute about their lives, as you gave Amy. Your words touched my heart today.

Leslie Harris said...

It's so true. None of us knows when our precious time here is over and our proverbial curtain call will come. And the older I get the more acutely aware I become of this which keeps me feeling grateful...although it doesn't assuage those pangs of grief I feel when I hear stories such as your friend Amy's. I feel sad for her daughter Haley-the rescuer of baby elephants-and her husband and her other family and friends who will miss her extraordinary spirit. And my condolences to you Suzanne, what a lovely tribute this is.

Cheryl Lawson said...

I am so sorry for your loss, Suzanne. The friends we make through our blogs become very close to us. Whether we've ever met in the real world or not, our spirits have touched.
Cheryl @ 22 Applegate Lane

Palomasea said...

I am so very sorry, dear Suzanne. Your friend sounds like she was a magical human being. Indeed she is dancing in the light....
e.e. cumming's words are is your loving tribute.
I am sending tight hugs to you, dear one....
~ Irina